Why I Won’t Ordain In The Near Future

I don’t think that I would ordain in the near future because I do enjoy sex and alcohol a little too much, and I like how I am in control of my practice. I’m happy not to ordain for the time being.

To be honest I don’t think I’m good enough to ordain yet. My practice is not regular enough and I don’t study enough. This is necessary because I would want ordination to be a natural progression of my life, an obvious next step, not a jump into the deep end to see whether I float or sink.

At some stage in the future this might change. For example, when sex loses it’s appeal and I give up the booze. This might happen 5, 10, or 20 years from now, I might feel ready to make this step. Or maybe this will not happen in this lifetime.

However, I would consider ordaining in the event that it was likely that I was going to die. We are all going to die, but if I knew that my time was 6 or 12 months away then things would certainly change. I would want to ordain in order to create merit for that brief period of time.